Public Vanity L.A.Fashion

within this next month #Public Vanity will be futuring our summer collection on Karma loop … Man this is crazy

my life is something like the biggest oxymoron.

1 minute im doing great in my career adventures, then the next im on the bottom faster than when i 1st started.

its annoying when u become great, and put all your effort into something then it doesn’t work out for some odd reason.

i understand we go through trials and tribulations, but when something happens that you cant fix by hard work. Its like getting laid off after you spend 25 plus year working for a company.

Your 1st thought is how am i going to feed my family and pay my bills? 2nd thought what am I going to do now? 3rd thought I wanted to get a new job anyway but what job am i going to apply to?

By this time I am so frustrated I just want to say fuck it. Then I just sit back and think how did I even get here? what did I do to end up back to were I 1st started? It doesn’t make any scene, because be for this unfortunate situation happens I am on top of my game. Doing everything I am supposed to be doing and more. Really working hard and putting in the effort to become the best in what I am pursuing. Then when it seems like my goal is so close that I can touch it. A random rock comes and shatters that dream. Then I am just sitting there looking at this broken pieces that I work so hard for. Contemplating on what emotion to express, but none seem to fill the empty gap that is causing so much pain. 

The next thing action is lashing out in dramatic fashion, but this only hurts the people around you that really care for you. Or trying to find an escape to hind your problem. witch I fall victim of both.

felt great to get that off my chest, and the black is gone…lol